Inscribed On Tombstone:
Born: New Year's Eve, 1983
Location: SkateTown
Occupation: Incorrigible Slacker Real Occupation: Media Student
Herein lies a...
Die-hard romantic
Tireless advice-giver
Certified gun-nut
Lazy-ass whore
Loyalist to a fault
Parody-lover
Electronic Entertainment Enthusiast
Football Fanatic
Conspiracy-theorist Crackpot
Wordsmith
Unrealistic idealist
Self-righteous moralist
Born individualist
Former atheist
Penchant for the melodramatic
Sentimentalist
Quotable Quotes
"Soon the reason is gone, and all that is left is the feeling itself..."
- Anonymous
"The thrill is in the hunt."
- Myself
"Even the strongest have their moments of fatigue."
- Nietzsche
"Fortune favours the bold."
- Virgil
"It is but a shadow and a flicker that you love..."
- Aragorn
"Beneath this mask is an idea... and ideas are bulletproof."
- V
"I have dreamed a dream... but now that dream has gone from me."
- Morpheus
"God does not play dice."
- Einstein
"Einstein would turn over in his grave. Not only does God play dice, the dice are loaded."
- Academician Prokhor Zhakarov
"When you kill one, it is a tragedy. When you kill ten million, it is a statistic."
- Stalin
"In one dimension I find existence, in two I find life, but in three, I find freedom."
- Foreman Domai
"You see, people believe what the media tells them to believe. And I tell the media what to believe."
- Kane
"Optimists and pessimists die the same way. Optimists just live differently."
- Shimon Peres
"Damn the torpedoes! Full speed ahead!"
- David G. Farragut
"You know you are in love, when you see the world in her eyes, and her eyes everywhere in the world."
- David Levesque
"Music... the language to stir the hearts of men."
- Shakespeare
"A man always finds it hard to accept he has lost a woman's love, no matter how badly he may have treated her."
- Sherlock Holmes
"He who attacks where his enemy does not know how to defend, will be victorious."
- Sun Tzu
"Without purpose, we would not exist."
- Agent Smith
"I know guys like you, you can do any terrifying thing you're ordered to do... but you have to do it running."
- Carl
"History has been one long series of conspiracies... the successful ones, we call governments."
- Stanton Dowd
"The empires of the future are the empires of the mind."
- Winston Churchill
"One thing is true of all governments... the most reliable records are tax records."
- Eric Finch
"When a guy sleeps around, he's a player. When a girl does, she's a slut."
- Sean
"A person is smart. People are dumb, stupid & panicky, and you know it."
- K.
Song 'O The Moment
Thursday, March 31, 2005
Nostalgia always tends to kick in when one has too much time on one's hands.
Old games can sometimes beat the shit out of all the new titles nowadays.
They really, really don't make games like they used to. Now most companies are just so focused on cranking out the most graphically gorgeous games (wow, alliteration there), gameplay has become a distant second on their priority lists. Explains why I find most of the old games more fun to play, despite the fact that they've probably been played to death already.
Game requirements are also currently going through the roof, but that's old hat; let's not beat a dead horse.
As the ol' saying goes: show me a man who does not touch games and I'll show you a dead man.
BTW, I think the latest round of movie price increases is total BS. Why not just hand over our entire wallet next time we watch a movie? Much less fuss that way. Hey wait, might not even cover the entry fee.
To all the cinema operators involved in this mob pricing scam: say hello to Mr Pirated DVD, you assholes.
Money, get away Get a good job with more pay and you're O.K. Money, it's a gas Grab that cash with both hands and make a stash New car, caviar, four star daydream Tthink I'll buy me a football team...
Money, get back I'm alright, Jack, keep your hands off my stack Money, it's a hit Don't give me that do goody good bullshit I'm in the hi-fidelity first class travelling set And I think I need a Lear jet...
Money, it's a crime Share it fairlybut don't take a slice of my pie Money, so they say Is the root of all evil today But if you ask for a rise it's no surprise that they're Giving none away, away, away
I remember the old days, when finding that special someone used to be all that mattered to me in life. Everything else was gray.
Well, even if I find someone, life still goes on. I still eat, sleep, shit, and do a hundred other different things as usual. Life won't become a lover's utopia.
In short, love is not and will never be the magical elixir that wipes away all of life's problems.
The old adage holds true: We often find something when we're not really looking for it.
Can you remember, Back to a simpler time Back to the watercolor days, That still run through your mind Oh, I remember just my old friend and me Runnin' through an open field The way it used to be
The feeling that our hearts could just take wings, We could live out all our dreams The journey there was never far away But like a dream come true, That's still inside of you The secret of tomorrow is to live your dreams today...
Remember the night, Remember the feeling Remember the magic In our lives
Do you remember, The way it used to feel When love was only make-believe And fairy tales were real Oh, I remember you were with me once again Free to live our fantasies It never has to end
The feeling that our hearts would just take wings, We could live a world of dreams Together we would sail against the wind And now I know where to begin, How to find it all again From now until forever...
Remember the time, Remember the feeling Remember the magic In your eyes
You've opened up my heart, And you gave life new meaning So remember that feeling Just remember the magic One more time, One more time Remember the magic...
2 more nights and a day of mugging, and everything will be over. As far as endings go, this one's a heck of a silent whimper.
'What happened, happened and couldn't have happened any other way.' - Morpheus
To those who have stood by me, thank you for believing in me and accepting me as I am.
And I never thought I'd feel this way And as far as I'm concerned, I'm glad I got the chance to say That I do believe I love you...
And if I should ever go away Well then close your eyes and try, To feel the way we do today And then if you can remember ...
Keep smiling, keep shining Knowing you can always count on me, for sure That's what friends are for For good times and bad times I'll be on your side forever more That's what friends are for...
Well you came and opened me And now there's so much more I see And so by the way I thank you
And then for the times when we're apart Well then close your eyes and know These words are coming from my heart And then if you can remember ...
Keep smiling, keep shining Knowing you can always count on me, for sure That's what friends are for In good times and bad times I'll be on your side forever more That's what friends are for
That's what friends are for...
- Dionne Warwick & Friends, That's What Friends Are For
"And in the end, if all that I accomplished was to say what I was always wanted to say, it would have been worth it."
L is for the way you look at me O is for the only one I see V is very very extraordinary E is even more than anyone that you adore, and
Love is all that I can give to you, Love is more than just a game for two Two in love can make it, Take my heart yet please don't break it Love was made for me and you...
Love was made for me and you...
- Fisher, L-O-V-E
(BTW, this makes for some great house music, with the trance/trip-hop melody.)
Really, really ironic that those I'm close to now are the people I never thought I would be, for one reason or another. Those who keep spoutin the proverbial advice that looks can be deceptive, you guys have no fucking idea how right you are.
Not that I'm complaining. I've changed as much as the next guy in the past year or so. Hopefully, those changes are for the better. And at least I went and did something I would never have contemplated having the balls for.
Overall, it's been one hell of a year. All sorts of highs and lows. The purest joys and the deepest sorrows. Laughter mixed with tears. And best of all, finding some meaning in life at last.
And here I stand at the door and knock, and if any man should hear my voice and open the door, I will come into his house, and will eat with him, and he with me.
'The battle between good and evil is not a conflict of abstract realities, not between Heaven and Hell; rather, it is the clash of personalities inside each one of us'
- L.
So often we're torn between what we should do and what we know we shouldn't. Being evil is so seductively insidious, we often give in to its lure without realizing it.
Nobody bothers to think what is right and what is wrong anymore - they just follow the crowd.
I would have wished it otherwise, but now I must face up to what I really am.
I am the Lone Wolf - solitary hunter of a pack that has scorned and outcast thee.
In solitude, perhaps, I begin the redemption of my soul, a soul that has grown black with sins accumulated from my past. In foolish pride and hate I turned my face away from He who would love me unconditionally.
I pray God will forgive me, for I do not myself.
Man fears and hates that which he does not understand.
How apt.
Images on the sidewalk speak of dream's descent Washed away by storms to graves of cynical lament Dirty canvases to call my own Protest limericks carved by the old pay phone
In your picture book I'm trying hard to see Turning endless pages of this tragedy Sculpting every move you compose a symphony You plead to everyone, 'see the art in me'
Broken stained-glass windows, the fragments ramble on Tales of broken souls, an eternity's been won As critics scorn the thoughts and works of mortal man My eyes are drawn to you in awe once again
In your picture book I'm trying hard to see Turning endless pages of this tragedy Sculpting every move you compose a symphony You plead to everyone, 'see the art in me'
Note To Self: Hope is not an option. It is a necessity.
People are most honest when they're angry. It's hard to tell a lie when you're friggin' pissed, no?
It's then, sometimes, that you see the true colours that lurk far beneath the multitude of facades built over them. Oh yes, people get better at disguising them all the time, but they cannot hope to conceal what has already been exposed.
I've no more sadness left in me. Those sad thoughts and tears evaporated long ago. In their place is the realization that there's a time and place for being the nice guy, and a time for acting otherwise.
For the friends that really matter, cherish them. If you have a significant other, cherish him/her, too. I suppose this is really rhetorical, but too often we take for granted those who have become close to us.
It's the way of the world, I suppose.
I thought of her, thinking of what she said to me.
"How can she ask you to wait so long...?"
"She didn't. It is up to me whether I want to, or not."
"What if all this is wrong? What if all you feel for her turns out to be a lie? What if it never comes to pass?"
"Then perhaps my heart will be broken, perhaps even tommorow... but how would that be different from any other day?"
I am the only one to blame for this Somehow, it all ends up the same Soaring on the wings of selfish pride, I float too high And like Icarus, I collide With a world I try so hard to leave behind To rid myself of all but love, to give and die
To turn away and not become Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves More deeply than the oceans, more abundant than the tears Of a world embracing every heartache
Can I be the one to sacrifice? Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow...
(To love you) Take my world apart (To need you) I am on my knees (To love you) Take my world apart (To need you) Broken, on my knees
Said and done, I stand alone Amongst remains of a life I should not own It takes all I am to believe In the mercy that covers me
Did you really have to die for me? All I am for all you are Because what I need and what I believe, are worlds apart...
Random musings that have been running around in my head:
Love is like a freeway pileup - often you don't see it until it's too late, and you're liable to get hurt by it as well.
To fight against your natural self is to wage a devil's battle - no victory, only senseless defeat.
Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not so sure about the former.
Fate plays a mean card game - it just drew a royal flush against my two-pair.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change that which I can, and the chance to finally ask her out.
If you cannot give of your love so free, then let the more loving one be me.
- Quotable Quotes, 2005
And, not forgetting Song 'O The Moment!
We were strangers, starting out on a journey Never dreaming, what we'd have to go through Now here we are, and I'm suddenly standing At the beginning with you...
No one told me I was going to find you Unexpected, what you did to my heart When I lost hope, you were there to remind me This is the start
And life is a road and I wanna keep going Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey I'll be there when the world stops turning I'll be there when the storm is through In the end, I wanna be standing at the beginning with you
We were strangers, on a crazy adventure Never dreaming how our dreams would come true Now here we stand, unafraid of the future At the beginning with you
And life is a road and I wanna keep going Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey I'll be there when the world stops turning I'll be there when the storm is through In the end, I wanna be standing at the beginning with you
Knew there was somebody somewhere Like a light in the dark Now I know that dreams will live on I've been waiting so long Nothing's gonna tear us apart
And life is a road and I wanna keep going Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey I'll be there when the world stops turning I'll be there when the storm is through In the end, I wanna be standing at the beginning with you
Have a temptation to subject the folks at doodleboard to certain... humiliations involving a blunt wooden pole and this funny-smelling sock left in the laundry basket.
Hmm.
Anyway, go catch Team America: World Police, now showing in all good cinemas (note: that doesn't include you, Eng Wah. HAH.) A word of warning, though: Abandon All Sense Ye Who Enter There.
When all's been said & done, you're still the only one.
You can't please everyone, and now it seems you can't even please the majority. And it's not because of how you act, as I once thought, but it's just for who you are and what you stand for. Since that's not gonna change anytime soon, I guess the answer's painfully clear.
Sometimes we hold ourselves to standards that are too high. I know I do - I guess that happens when so much future responsibility weighs down on you. As far as I'm concerned, though, I don't bow down for anybody; you shouldn't have to make someone like you, it just happens. Don't think I don't know you're trying to do; if you wanna be Ms Im-The-Fucking-Most-Well-Liked-And-Goddamn-Popular-Bitch-Empress, go ahead, but leave others out of your megalomaniac schemes. If you don't like that, and you don't like me, and you think you can screw my life up, guess what: you can just kiss my ass, ese.
On a lighter note, I think I need to get new shoes, because I'm just wearing out my one and only pair of sneakers just trying to perfect the ollie on my board. Interestingly, though, I'm doing more 360 spins and kickflips than ollies, and it's totally unintentional (there was this time the board sailed through the air to impale itself... somewhere, but let's not go there).
CATS skit was utter bollocks. Suffice to say that I won't be auditioning for any bank robber roles anytime soon.
Actually, today wasn't the best of days. Woke up friggin' late, burnt $$ on cab fare, stubbed my big toe badly, and got soaked. Quite the list, but cliched as it might sound, all that kinda swept away when I saw her, and the smile that lit up the gloomy day.
Where do we go from here? I'd like to think the Man Upstairs has a hand in all this, and that everything will work out in the end.
Somehow, it always does.
Song 'O The Moment:
Had a drive, driven by your love But when you messed around I lost the drive I found
Thought you needed, needed someone true But you changed your mind Or had I failed you?
Wish you'd been, careful with my heart But you tore it apart And broke an angel's heart
The kiss was true, had to end somehow But I am livin' proof of what love is about
It's hard holding you Loving you, losing you It's sad to be true And be fooled by you I don't know (I don't know) I gotta know Should I stay or should I go?
