Inscribed On Tombstone:
Born: New Year's Eve, 1983
Location: SkateTown
Occupation: Incorrigible Slacker Real Occupation: Media Student
Herein lies a...
Die-hard romantic
Tireless advice-giver
Certified gun-nut
Lazy-ass whore
Loyalist to a fault
Parody-lover
Electronic Entertainment Enthusiast
Football Fanatic
Conspiracy-theorist Crackpot
Wordsmith
Unrealistic idealist
Self-righteous moralist
Born individualist
Former atheist
Penchant for the melodramatic
Sentimentalist
Quotable Quotes
"Soon the reason is gone, and all that is left is the feeling itself..."
- Anonymous
"The thrill is in the hunt."
- Myself
"Even the strongest have their moments of fatigue."
- Nietzsche
"Fortune favours the bold."
- Virgil
"It is but a shadow and a flicker that you love..."
- Aragorn
"Beneath this mask is an idea... and ideas are bulletproof."
- V
"I have dreamed a dream... but now that dream has gone from me."
- Morpheus
"God does not play dice."
- Einstein
"Einstein would turn over in his grave. Not only does God play dice, the dice are loaded."
- Academician Prokhor Zhakarov
"When you kill one, it is a tragedy. When you kill ten million, it is a statistic."
- Stalin
"In one dimension I find existence, in two I find life, but in three, I find freedom."
- Foreman Domai
"You see, people believe what the media tells them to believe. And I tell the media what to believe."
- Kane
"Optimists and pessimists die the same way. Optimists just live differently."
- Shimon Peres
"Damn the torpedoes! Full speed ahead!"
- David G. Farragut
"You know you are in love, when you see the world in her eyes, and her eyes everywhere in the world."
- David Levesque
"Music... the language to stir the hearts of men."
- Shakespeare
"A man always finds it hard to accept he has lost a woman's love, no matter how badly he may have treated her."
- Sherlock Holmes
"He who attacks where his enemy does not know how to defend, will be victorious."
- Sun Tzu
"Without purpose, we would not exist."
- Agent Smith
"I know guys like you, you can do any terrifying thing you're ordered to do... but you have to do it running."
- Carl
"History has been one long series of conspiracies... the successful ones, we call governments."
- Stanton Dowd
"The empires of the future are the empires of the mind."
- Winston Churchill
"One thing is true of all governments... the most reliable records are tax records."
- Eric Finch
"When a guy sleeps around, he's a player. When a girl does, she's a slut."
- Sean
"A person is smart. People are dumb, stupid & panicky, and you know it."
- K.
Song 'O The Moment
Sunday, July 31, 2005
I stood alone, with the sound of the crashing waves beneath me.
The sound that could not drown out the mental piercings of a thousand breaking glasses.
I could not see. Like a veil of the darkest shade, tears blurred my vision.
I stepped to the edge.
The balm of nothingness, spread over the rawness of a wound that would never heal.
Why? Dear God, why?
Once you told me you would wait for me.
Wherever I went, wherever I would go.
You promised your love to me, beneath the light of the full moon.
"This is my heart, and it is mine to give to whomever I choose."
And once upon a time, I believed you.
I waited an eternity for you.
I would have willingly waited another eternity.
Til the day you found another person to promise forever.
The day my world came crashing down.
The day I lost my way.
Do feelings change?
Always.
No. No, no, no....
I cared not for the wetness that forced its way past closed eyelids.
The wind billowing in my ears, howling its eerie message.
You have tasted the bitterness of inevitability.
You will linger on in sadness and in gloom, til the many days of your life are utterly spent.
You don't have to drive a fancy car Don't have to quote me Shakespeare just to woo me Yeah I see your nervous laughter when you're trying to crack some joke Well, you don't fool me I'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing Don't try to hide away
Just be yourself, Mr. Beasley I don't need your show of attitude Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you Fall in love with you
You don't know this but I see you in the church when you are praying, You just move me And my friend Sue she tells me you've been teaching kids for free Mr. Philanthropy I'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing Don't try to hide away
Just be yourself, Mr. Beasley I don't need your show of attitude Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you
Just be yourself, Mr. Beasley I don't need your show of attitude Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love It's your soul that makes me fall in love It's your soul that makes me fall in love with you
Sometimes it seems like everything is one big wager, does it not?
You meet someone new. You say hi, you wager on lowering your self-guard in order to make a new friend. Fortunately most people are nice, and usually aren't apt to chew your head off, so this is a rather low-risk gamble.
You propose a new, radical idea at a group meeting. You wager by sticking your neck out on something you are not even sure people will listen to, let alone accept. This carries noticeably more risk, but it is a risk within acceptable limits, in view of the possible payoff.
You like a girl. You want to ask her out, you wager your entire sense of self-dignity in popping the question. Whether you do it subtly, or not, is entirely another debate. High-risk wager, but as always, the prize at the end justifies such low odds of beating the house.
You're not sure if a relationship will work out. But you want to try, so you give your all in loving the person. In some ways, the riskiest proposal of all, simply because there is no easy way from extricating oneself from the possible quagmire should the shit hit the fan.
But, then again, there is possibly no higher reward.
Nobody ever won by not wagering.
Gambling. Try as we might, we can never run from it.
The cosmos is just one big, gigantic game of blackjack.
There are no intangibles. You know what cards your opponent has, you'll beat him. You know what cards have been played, you'll beat the house. Sometimes you can't win no matter how hard you try.
But you never stop trying.
The Gambler's Ruin. The House always wins.
Or does it?
Rules are meant to be broken.
I see the morning glory It winds upon the tree It tells the untold story of how things were meant to be You saw the universe Caught up in desperate dreams You came and changed the ending Changed it to save my fate You led the revolution You left your legacy Embraced the struggle in the face of mortality I know I'm not alone in this Help me believe
I can be free I can be free from this place Beautiful healer Beautiful grace Help me to see Everything fall into place Wake me from dreaming No more deceiving Break these chains
It's still the same old story This great divide Between the want and waste And all the hunger inside I heard the news today Now I'm trying to find my place I'm just a single voice What can I do to erase
All this misunderstanding All this anarchy Six degrees of separation Sometimes it's so hard to see That we are not alone in this I need to believe
I can be free I can be free from this place Beautiful healer Beautiful grace Help me to see Everything fall into place Wake me from dreaming No more deceiving Break these chains...
Even the most hokkien peng of driving instructors can sometimes give good advice.
I suppose it's only natural to ask when your trainee starts speeding, nearly knocks down a pedestrian, and even manages to kill the engine flat from 50 in a single instant. Thankfully not in that order though.
And even more amazingly, when the trainee is otherwise doing well, technique-wise at least, on his virgin road trip.
When so many things weigh down on your mind, you can't help but be distracted.
What he said made alot of sense though: nothing is so bad that you can't live without it.
Except God, perhaps, but that's another debate.
Life goes on. The first experience cuts the deepest; always been this way.
Damn waste.
Goddamn waste.
What doesn't kill you though, always makes you stronger.
Right now, there are bigger things than the both of us.
Bigger things?
You have no fucking idea.
*
Please, please forgive me But I won't be home again Maybe someday you'll look up And barely conscious, you'll say to no one Isn't something missing
You won't cry for my absence, I know You forgot me long ago Am I that unimportant Am I so insignificant Isn't something missing Isn't someone missing me
Even though I'm the sacrifice You won't try for me, not now Though I'd die to know you love me I'm all alone Isn't someone missing me
Please, please forgive me But I won't be home again I know what you do to yourself I breathe deep and cry out Isn't something missing Isn't someone missing me
Even though I'm the sacrifice You won't try for me, not now Though I'd die to know you love me I'm all alone Isn't someone missing me
And if I bleed, I'll bleed Knowing you don't care And if I sleep just to dream of you I'll wake without you there Isn't something missing Isn't something
Even though I'm the sacrifice You won't try for me, not now Though I'd die to know you love me I'm all alone Isn't something missing Isn't someone missing me
In all the furore surrounding the bombing of London's metropolitan area, scant notice has been given to a little-publicized incident in far-away Afghanistan.
A CH-47 Chinook was downed by what appeared to be an rocket-propelled grenade over the Kunar region.
Why is this episode so uncanny in its resemblance? Along with another Chinook, it was a Special Forces chopper flying in resuce SEALs ambushed by Taliban forces, and the choppers started taking heavy ground fire as they neared their embattled comrades.
Ring a bell?
The RPG nailed the chinook right in its fuselage, and as its sister Chinook watched in horror the chopper struggled to regain control before surrending to the call of death and plummeting like a stone, killing all 16 crew and SEALs on board.
Starting to sound familiar?
Despite a pair of Apaches and A-10 Warthogs flying air cover missions overhead, they could do nothing but watch the Chinook dash itself against the lip of a ravine, then roll over and fall into the valley to impale itself on the rocky mountains of Afghanistan.
Now that's just creepy.
Looks like Afghanistan may be turning into another Somalia after all. Warlords roaming the land as they please, an insurgency slowly but surely spiralling out of control, and whatnot. Too much focus on Iraq, and look what they get.
America, do yourself a favour and start devoting more effort to where it counts. Nobody wants two Iraqs on the world map, so don't start now.
On a lighter note, this song goes out to that special someone.
I know you've heard these words a hundred other times before And you've been hurt and so your heart has chose to close the door Love broke your heart and brought you lies Look in my eyes, you'll see a love that's deep and true Tender and strong and all for you You can trust this love, honestly that's the honest truth.
Chorus: From the heart, I'm giving you everything, everything From the heart, I promise you that I'll be there I'll be there to love you From the soul, I'm showing you all I feel, all I feel is From the heart, from the heart.
I will protect you and respect you and be all you need and when you reach for love you'll only need to reach for me These arms will never let you down They're staying around, I'll walk with you through every storm I'll keep you safe, I'll keep you warm And you'll have no doubt, you're the one I'm living for
From the heart, I'm giving you everything, everything From the heart, I promise you that I'll be there I'll be there to love you From the soul, I'm showing you all I feel, all I feel is From the heart, from the heart.
Bridge: I'll provide the love you need Just trust my touch, believe in me I'll never make you cry Giving all i've got with all i've got inside.
From the heart, I'm giving you everything, everything From the heart, I promise you that I'll be there I'll be there to love you From the soul, I'm showing you all I feel, all I feel is From the heart, from the heart.
With all my heart, I pledge my love forever You've got my word, you and I will always be together There may be times, we have a disagreement This love's too strong, to ever let it come between us
I would, I would keep this love alive I would, I would because otherwise
Me minus you equals blue Can't imagine what I ever do If it'd ever came to Me minus you equals blue I can't stand the thought I've lost so far Like so many hearts being in the dark It'll never be me minus you
Each day I learn, a little more about you Then I know for sure, that I'd never wanna be without you With all the stage of truth of this relation Me without your love is such a sad equation baby
I would, I would keep this love alive I would, I would because otherwise
Me minus you equals blue Can't imagine what I ever do If it'd ever came to Me minus you equals blue I can't stand the thought I've lost so far Like so many hearts being in the dark It'll never be...
What we got can't get much better I would never change a thing Baby we're so good together Then I'll never, never ever want it to be me
Me minus you equals blue Can't imagine what I ever do If it'd ever came to Me minus you equals blue I can't stand the thought I've lost so far I want you in my life I can't be without your love
Me minus you equals blue Can't imagine what I ever do If it'd ever came to Me minus you equals blue I can't stand the thought I've lost so far I need you here with me
- Glenn Medeiros, Me Minus You Equals Blue
This song just says so much of what I want to say.
And of course, a little poetry never hurt.
All I have to do is close my eyes, and dream And there you are, standing before me My very own love fantasy Mine to love & cherish, it seems Together for eternity In a love so strong, it'd forever be
